a shocked news...robbery~~

I were so shocked when i got a phone call from alvin yesterday night right after I reach my dorms from my course mates' house.

he got rob while he is on his way back to his college from university.

his college is the kolej no. 9 in UM which located outside of university compound.

and they have to walk far to their faculty for classes every day.

according to him, there are 4 indian guys on 2 motors that come towards they all (3 guys and 2 girls)

and he walked at the outside part and the indian guy take him as the 1st target.

they hold his shirt and ask him to show his ic. (those indian claimed that they are police)

and he don't want, end up with a beat on his face that make him feel painful.

they felt something was wrong, so they all trying to run away

but, because he was hold by the indian guy, so, he falled down and get some hurt on his hand and leg.

luckily his room mate pull him so fast before the indian guy trying to hit him with helmet.

this is serious la...

how come the place will be this dangerous?

alvin and his friends, got guys and girls.

what will be happened if you face this situation while you are alone and you are a girl?

this is really serious la.

UM is a bit university and the oldest university in Malaysia,

how come they can allow this incident to be happened while there were so many cases happened before?

can they trying to make those students to stay in university compound?

or, please provide bus frequently.

make sure those students are safe.

really so scary that this thing can happened.

my heart almost get stopped while I heard this news.

really very scary.

luckily you are not get injured seriously.

or else I will get mad i guess.....

went out to visit the patient in UM just now.

helped him to clean and "wrap" his injured part.

although it is not serious, but still have to take good care of it ma....

go out at 11am to have lunch in Ming ming, and go to take KTM at 12pm.

reached UM at 1.45pm and reached UKM at 4.45pm.

almost 5 hours travel go and fro....=S

but at least i know how's you injured.

hope you can recover soon~~~

bbq in course mate's house~~

yesterday...went out to have bbq in course mates' house...in Taman Tenaga...not far from our university.

went out from college about 3pm and go buy ingredients in Kajang.

we bought a lot of foods and went to so many places....

food~~~

reached their house about 6pm

and we all preparing those food....

there are some guys were dota-ing too...=.="

so bad~~

charcoal...working hard to get fired~~~

working hard...everyone is waiting to eat....add oil~~

working harder~~~LOL

some guys go to fire up the charcoal.

starting to bbq~~~yeah~~~

finally, we got to eat about 7pm.

so happy~~~

burning~~

everyone is bbq-ing while some of those guys that did not get to do it, watching and waiting...lol

so pity~~~

by the way, they got the chance to eat as well as we cooked those food...

blissful too as we burn for you..(faster say thank you le..LOL)

(actually, just let them eat a fish ball....hahaha...)

PPSM gurls from KIY~~

girls are always like this....

starting to snap pictures themselves when got mirror.....LOL

love this photo a lot...~~

so many foods....=)

well...everyone is so hungry le....bbq-ing so many food at once...until no place to stuck in even one ppl...lol

add oil~~~makan...=P

all of us~~

snap photo after the bbq with everyone before go home,

thanks a lot to those "drivers" that fetch us home....=)

the most surprise things is the watermelon that we bought, been "rebut" by everyone like mad.

everyone like it very much...haha....

the watermelon is big enough and the "isi" are much more thicker.....

sweet as well....

so keng la me....(i am the one choosing~~~so pro.....LOL - ignore me pls...just to siok sendiri a while)

worrying about you....

but I cannot do anything....but only can worry...

please don't stop me from finding you tomorrow.

even you are fine also, please let me go...please...

haiz......

10 hours classes continuously~~~ =S

today is Monday.

the weather not very shine.

dark and rainy day...but so sad, I cannot sleep in dorms.

only can go to class whole day.

10 hours class continuously and only one break.

so tired.

hate the etika class the most.

the lecturer talk until nothing to talk already. keep on talk the same things.

repeat every class.

always like this.

ok, if what he talked and repeated is useful for exam, that is ok.

but, what he repeated are all crap!!!

walau, did he know that we all are very tired?

haiz....

planning for some plan tomorrow.

so excited. hehe...cannot wait for it...=)

back to UKM again.

nice cake from dear

came back to UKM today and reached at KL station about 11.50am.

10 minutes earlier than I thought.

reached UKM station by KTM at 12.45pm like that and finally reached my dorms at 1.20pm.

feeling so sad to come back to UKM.

because the coming month is the hardest month for us in this semester.

got a stupid survey on going and the final exam is right after 3 weeks.

so sien....

hoping that exam finish faster and I can relax at home soon...

hehe....

got cake delivery at 7pm just now.

haha....luckily I am well prepared too...=)

thought want to go buy dinner at the cafe but recent day the Uncle Sam (tauke) got something wrong.

the cafe was closed.

end up having dinner in dorms.

maggi + moon cake + sweet cakes from my dear. nevermind, still full at last.

lol

so hate when the stupid cafe is off.

my room mate is back also.

while I reached in the afternoon, there are not much people in my block.

I guess got some people still on the way back, or tomorrow.

going to back to work tomorrow.

hard work have to keep on after recharge from holidays.

although the holidays was so short.

got sore throat now....keep drinking water like mad...=S

add oil...~~~

bbq become steamboat...lol

went to jingyu's house for bbq yesterday night.

but so sad that we just cannot make the charcoals cannot be lighted up after we tried for many times and quite long time.

so at last, we give up for bbq and went to have steamboat in the house (which is one of the plan too)

but the tom yam steamboat was nice as well although we make it at the very last minutes.

thanks to jingyu's mom to help up and everyone were very very full after that.

had a great great laugh when jingyu's dad came back and when he get high with some alcohol effect.

he had a guys' talk with kr and make us all laugh like hell.

haha....

they really very very funny.

played with my baby all the day.

they are just very very cute.

the 2nd one keep on kacau my laptop by use my external mouse to act as her handphone.

the youngest one always want people to be around her and talk to her.

once you call her name "amy"....she will smile to you.

what a cute baby...=)

today, spend whole day at home for complete my assignment.

make the front page and check again on the grammar mistakes.

going to print it out soon as I have to pass up on Monday.

after that, i am going to continue with my drama....

here i come....drama...

going back to UKM tomorrow by 7.30am bus. so sien la...

holidays always passed fast....and exam is coming soon.

have to work hard while I back to UKM.

=S

add oil....=)

another drama day

today...another drama day...haha....

very lazy to study. hehe....

played with my babies today.

they are very kacau and funny....hehe....

as i left my laptop, the Allieson ran to touch my laptop already.

she is so eager to touch my laptop. but she don't know how to play.

so, she just simply ran here and "kesi" touch it.

she act like us while we typing.and when I am back and look at her, she is smile at me.

she is so cute....haha...

today is Thursday.

2 more days before I go back to UKM.

as I go back, I have to study, do assignment, and have a lot of meetings.

so hate to go back sometimes.

haiz....

one more month before I come back to Penang again.

ok, I am going back to my work a.k.a watching drama.

haha...=)

I am so sorry.....

drama day

today...is drama day..watched drama at home whole day.

haha....this is so siok la...

this is called life....lol

printed out my stuff for simulation and other assignment.

basically, i finished up my assignment.

temporary.....

when go back to UKM, i got more...lol

haiz....so sien.

the holidays now still left 4 days only.

almost finish.

happy days always finished up very fast.haiz....

i am so sorry because always due to my things in home and other stuff make us cannot chat.

cannot online.

i am very sorry.

i not mean so. i am very very sorry.

对不起我爱你 梁静茹 词: 潘协庆 李宗盛 曲: 潘协庆 没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你 不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定 你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友 从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧 想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好 喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间出现的全是你 我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起 对不起 我爱你 [01:50.60] 没别的 只想说对不起 怎么样 我都会珍惜 不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情 你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸 爱人或朋友 现在到永远我真会感觉要 一想你 我的心就狂跳 我的模样记不记得牢 情人卡有没有收到 读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天 出现的全是你 我才不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起 对不起 我爱你 你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好 喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你 我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起 对不起 我爱你

steamboat day....=)

steamboat~~~=)

鸡仔饼

not really got go out with anyone today.

stayed in my home for whole day because I seriously hope to get full rest.

hehe...

only went out for about 30 minutes. to find Vicky for some stuffs to settle.

after that, i come back home and eat continuously non stop from 3pm until 7pm...

hehe...keng le???LOL

our lunch for today is steamboat.

after that, we ate honey drew, and then is 虾饼, and drink juices, after that eat nugget.

haha....and our dinner is steamboat again.

lunch is chicken sup and dinner is tom yam sup.

love it so much....haha....

watched drama for whole day.

hehe....just for fun.haha....

and finally i got chance to rest already.

but, have to start to work after this holiday.

so sad...haiz....

but, going to enjoy this holidays.

awaiting for next weekend to see you...=)

love you and miss you.

is 1.05am now.

and i am waiting some how. for a message or anything.

still waiting....

don't know how long should I wait some more.

but never mind la... i am willing to continue wait...=)

thanks....

yesterday night was a night where I don't know how to describe.

suddenly feel damn hot and this make me feel pek cek.

my head was damn ichi and this make me feel worse.

so sorry that i use damn bad manner on my dear and talk to him like hell..

so pity him have to tahan my manner like this while he was damn tired.

although you said no, but i still feel bad.

haiz....

the song above. just a simple song. but he purposely go find and sing to me while on phone.

this is so touching. because he don't know how to read chinese words and he still go find this one with pinyin one to sing for me....

this is much effort..=)

i love it a lot.

dear, sorry for the bad manner on you

you din angry on me and come to console me.

some more dedicate and sing song for me....thanks a lot to you...

the song never be so touching until you sang to me....

=)

nice nice home cook

nice nice home cook...=)

thanks mom!!

king's ice cream...RM0.99 each

ABC nudget

my family favourite..."cai boi" (hokkien)

went out to Sunshine with family in the evening today.

go to buy some goods.

enjoyed my time with my family...=)

we never went to shopping in sunshine square together since long time ago...

while i were young, we went there every week.

miss that time a lot.

came back home about dinner time and had a great great dinner at home.

it is just a simple home cook dinner...but it is damn nice...

got my favourite food.

feel damn hate the situation when my brother always told me he want to use car at night like this.

so last minutes and make my plan all burned up.

damn hell...I need to use car also le....always like this since he know how to drive.

feel so miss my dear recent day as we only can meet online in skype.

this situation will continuously for this whole week until we go back to university on the coming Sunday.

haiz...the line in university are bad until we cannot on skype...so sad...

but then never mind la....

our heart is always together.

thanks a lot to my dear for the dedication of song on your blog

=)

i love it...and i love you too...

=)

it is very sorry that i cannot get to gathering for today due to some reasons...

sorry...

shopping with family~~

a home made moon cake from my mom....haha....

went out with my family today....to buy a pair of shoes for me....because i break my shoes today...again...

haiz...i broke my shoes when I came back to Penang during merdeka day.

now, i break another one....haiz...

although this is not my only one shoes in Penang, but it is only one shoes which is flat....no heels...

so sien...have to go buy....

drop my brother to Sunny Point there for his gathering with his friends

went to Queensbay with my dad and mom to search for my shoes....

finally...i got one pair of my lovely shoes in Walk-in.

quite fast actually...i love this shoes as my mom showed me...

buy it on the spot after i tried for the larger size....lol

walked around in Queensbay and Jusco with mom and dad...

bought dad's clock and mom bought some sugar all that.

went to fetch my bro after that.

went to "zhou tian yang" to look at some fish to fill up my dad's aquarium....

all fish dead not long time ago.haha...so sad la....

went to have dinner near sungai ara there.

quite nice. but slow a bit...*sigh*

came home finally....and just took my bath....

refreshing....=)

i love this picture when I first saw it somewhere when i online...

download it for you....

i love u and miss u...

gathering + assignment night

shang hai mini dump

Fried mee with beef

Ginger soup with "tang yuan"

a random photo in the restaurant

went out with lay ping to queensbay today...

for a random shopping and a meet up.

bought some of my stuffs like hair conditioner and help my mom to buy tomato sauce.

lay ping also make some shopping like buy clothes all that.

end up, we spend quite a lot...LOL

had a great day shopping as well...

but, we forget to snap a picture with both of us....haiz...

a little bit tired...but have to finish up my assignment by tonight...add oil~~

raining day today...so cold and so nice to sleep as well...haha...

haha...so, I found my excuse to skip assignment...lol

now, back to work...

so sad la, this is holidays le...why I have to suffer with assignment???

no fair....=S

missing someone badly....hope can see him soon....

miss u my dear dear~~=)

so good to be at home~~

Nicole is playing Pet Society with my laptop~~

Allieson is playing with my lovely doraemon~~

Amy is smiling...this is one of the best photo snap today~~~

3 sisters

this is my favourite photo snap today....

one of it.....the others is nice also...but i favourite this one the most...

3 sisters in my house....

Nicole (eldest), Allieson (2nd) and Amy (youngest)....

haha....

they are just very very cute...and they make my life very colourful...

those babies cute although they very kacau sometimes....hahaa....

enjoy my time in my house today...slept until very late only wake up, eat nice nice food.

be myself (this is the most important).....

can play with my babies....=)

this is good life le.....

but it is not complete because someone is not here....haiz....

so hope that he can be here also....

settle down my PP II assignment today....working on Etika one now...hope can finish it tonight than I can settle the next one too....is the stupid statistics....haiz...

damn hell...I hate all those assignments la...haiz...make my holidays miserable....

well...I am free for yum cha...who is free, welcome to find me o...=)

missing my dear dear badly....so hope to see you~~~

=)

Gathering + home....

nice and romantic restaurant....
haha....a birthday guy went up to sing...nice voice ~~
hot chocolate....OXO
banana boat~~
me and jing yu~~
me, jing yu and yu min
4 of us~~~

well...I reached Penang about 6pm as the bus depart at 1pm.

it takes longer time to reach Penang due to the bad bad weather....haha...

so great to be home.....

my babies so happy and jumping....=.='

so weird to see they all so happy suddenly....haha...

but this make me feel warm for being home...lol

went out for a gathering with friends after a dinner at home.

in a restaurant called: OXO....the name is cute...

overall the food are not bad and not very expensive....

the best i like this restaurant is the surrounding is very romantic....

the situation just suitable for couples to go dating and friends to go for celebrations....

and, I like the singers there. their voice is really good and nice.

this is good...well done to the boss~~

met a new friend today...haha...

"hi hi" again although you might not see it....

the world is small because he is my friend's friend too....lol

my comment is: not bad.....my view is ok...and consider good also... haha...

appriciate la...

going to do my homework and assignments in this holidays also...

I guess I can finish it soon...

opps...not "it", should be "them"...got couples of assignments hang there...waiting for me...haha...

hope that I got time and willing to study also la...haha...

it is hard to get over it, but try your best la...

people and things will change for time....everything is different due to time.

never promise something which is too far from future.

and never be too confident on something. because, we cnanot predict the future.

well....there is a song sang by the singer in the restaurant which I love a lot.

long time never go listen already....I like the lirics a lot....

alvin yeo, go learn...i wan to listen from your mouth......hehe....=P

张信哲-爱如潮水

不问你为何流眼泪

不在乎你心里还有谁

且让我给你安慰

不论结局是喜是悲

走过千山万水

在我心里你永远是那么美

既然爱了就不后悔

再多的苦我也愿意背

我的爱如潮水

爱如潮水将我向你推

紧紧跟随

爱如潮水它将你我包围

我再也不愿见你在深夜里买醉

不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚

你该知道这样会让我心碎

答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊

不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味

你可知道这样会让我心碎

既然爱了就无怨无悔

再多的苦我也愿意背

我的爱如潮水

爱如潮水将我向你推

紧紧跟随

爱如潮水它将你我包围

200th days....=)

today is a very special day.

for me...this is a very weird day for me as I am so happy because today is the 200th days since alvin and me together.

all days we went through are so happy and sweet thought that got some hard days too....

no matter how also, it is very lucky for me to meet you. a guy that love me a lot.

care about me a lot.

you make me feel that I worth for all the love.

you make me feel that I am alive.

before meet you, I always wonder that will I meet anyone who love me so much?care about me and will forgive me no matter what i did wrong?

and I met you. and I only found that the answer is yes.

thanks a lot to you my dear for what you have done for me...=)

i love you.

today, no class at all as both classes were canceled.

so, I stayed in dorms to complete my assignments as I do not want to bring all the books home.

they are heavy.

well.....at last, i finally finished one of my assignment that take me whole day and the other one is still in progress.

when i got a message from my friend at almost 7pm, I really feel weird.

straight away i canceled our discussion.

they are in night market and cannot make it to come back for the discussion.

the othes guy is in his meeting, the other two indian girls are in their college for activities, 3 are in night markets. end up, left 3 people.....what can we discuss some more? it is so no point and at last, I choosed to cancel it.

I am so sorry to you all because this is the second time i cancel the discussion in the very last minutes.

really sorry for those who work hard to prepare all the things.

haiz....

went out to da bao late because at first thought wan to eat after the discussion.

sicne the discussion canceled, so, i go da bao at 7pm. this is a bad bad time to da bao during puasa month.

many people in the cafe make me waited for half and hour more to get my rice.

haiz...

went back to dorms after da bao, I have no chance to eat as those people come online asked me to provide them the detail and songs for the simulations....

haiz...

have to do find and download...

after settle all things down, it is already 8pm something.. felt very hungry since 4pm. ate at 8pm and end up my stomach was uncomfort.. i guess one more reason was the fried rice is very oily.

haiz...

seriously I miss my home. miss my mom cooked.

going home tomorrow....happy....*wink*

today is my unlucky day actually...(i dont know.)

my room mate went out to night market (i guess), so she cannot manage to teach the class mandarin.

she asked for my help to replace her place.

went up there at 10pm and end up i sat there alone. no one comes.

haiz....

maybe because the syllabus is almost done taught. so, no one come at last.

came back at 10.30pm and continue with my assignment. one more statistics homework in hanging there. i haven't touch it yet...

jut feeling headache...I just want some rest...can i??

holidays is coming......so happy~~~

gonna enjoy my holidays....

"where got Ghost" + sweet sweet dating~~~

Where Got Ghost~~~ a funny ghost Singapore movie....I love the ending....it is warm~~=)
I will hold you forever~~
promises~~~
while waiting for food in restaurant~~

my "sleeping beauty"lol.....

in fitting room.....trying the short pant~~
ask him enter after that and snap a lot of photo inside...lol
Combo Hot Plate Set meal (RM19.90-promotion price, RM23.90-normal price)
side food for the combo (ying yang tea, mushroom soup,jelly and garlic bread)

went out for lunch in the "da shu xia" out of UKM with whole group of coursemate and go to Mid Valley with some of them while all of them is on the way home for holidays....

haha.....we have no class since today. so, all go back already....lol

went out dating with my dear in Mid Valley after his class

so sorry for make him wait for so long....the ktm was late...haiz...

watched the movie "Where Got Ghost" which is a Singapore movie. because we failed to make it to watch "Orphan" because I reached at 2.15pm....haiz....

this movie's story is very near to our daily life and it comes with many "Pengajaran"

haha....a nice and funny movie as well.

but i scare because it always appear suddenly...haha....

this make me shock...lol

walked around and buy some things.

and we went to Kim Gary for our dinner.

there are new combo meals which is in promotion now.

it is quite worth as well.

eat and enjoy our snapping photos.....haha....

a very funny stuffs happened...

we met alvin's friends there in kim gary and i accidentally thought wrongly a guy = a tomboy....

.....................

damn sweat...

dont misunderstand that my eye got problem la...it is not my false le....

he is long hair and he tie it up....and seriously, he really looks like girl (tomboy)

haha....

the alvin laugh non-stop.....=.='

came back and reached dorms about 9pm.

feeling so good when the ktm has not much people.

this is great and it moved fast and the air condition inside is cold.

this is call good service.

but, only for particular time (mon - thurs and non-busy hours)

haiz.....

so happy go out dating with dear-dear....

but this is out last dating until the Raya holidays finish.....haiz...

awaiting for the next dating....

=)

awaiting for Thursday...I finally can go home!!!!

=)

母親，我怎麼讓你等了那麼久

文／劉繼榮

母親真的老了，變得孩子般纏人，

每次打電話來，總是滿懷熱誠地問：「你什麼時候回家？」

且不說相隔一千多里路，要轉三次車，

光是工作、孩子已經讓我分身無術，哪裡還抽得出時間回家。

母親的耳朵不好，我解釋了半天，她仍舊熱切地問：「你什麼時候能回來？」

幾次三番，我終於沒有了耐心，在電話裏衝母親大聲嚷嚷，

她終於聽明白，默默掛了電話。

隔幾天，母親又問同樣的問題，只是那語調怯怯地，沒有了底氣。

像個不甘心的孩子，明知問了也是白問，可就是忍不住。

我心一軟，沉吟了一下。母親見我沒有煩，立刻開心起來。

她欣喜地向我描述：「後院的石榴都開花了，西瓜快熟了，你回來吧。」

我為難地說：「那麼忙，怎麼能請得上假呢！」

她急急地說：「你就說媽媽得了癌，只有半年的活頭了！」

我立刻責怪她胡說，她呵呵地笑了。

小時候，每逢颳風下雨，我不想去上學，便裝肚子疼，被母親識破，挨了一頓好罵。

現在老了，她反而教著女兒說謊了，我又好氣又好笑。

這樣的問答不停地重複著，我終於不忍心，告訴她下個月一定回去，

母親竟高興得哽咽起來。

可不知怎麼了，永遠都有忙不完的事，每件事都比回家重要，

最後，到底沒能回去。

電話那頭的母親，仿佛沒有力氣再說一個字，

我滿懷內疚：「媽，生氣了吧？」

母親這一回聽真了，她連忙說：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙。」

可是沒幾天，母親的電話催得越發緊了。

她說，葡萄熟了，梨熟了，快回來吃吧。

我說，有什麼稀罕，這裏滿大街都是，花個十元八元就能吃個夠。

母親不高興了，我又耐下性子來哄她：

「不過，那些東西都是化肥和農藥餵大的，哪有你種的好呢。」

母親得意地笑起來。

星期六那天，氣溫特別高，我不敢出門，開了空調在家裏呆著。

孩子嚷嚷雪糕沒了，我只好下樓去超市買。

在暑氣蒸騰的街頭，我忽然就看見了母親的背影。

看樣子她剛下車，胳膊上挎著個籃子，

背上背著沉甸甸的袋子，她彎著腰，左躲右閃著，怕別人碰了她的東西。

在擁擠的人流裏，母親每走一步都很吃力。

我大聲地叫她，她急急抬起滿是熱汗的臉，四處尋找，

看見我走過來，竟驚喜地說不出話來。

一回到家，母親就喜滋滋地往外捧那些東西。

她的手青筋暴露，十指上都纏著膠布，手背上有結了痂的血口子。

母親笑著對我說：「吃呀，你快吃呀，這全是我挑出來的。」

我這沒有出過遠門的母親，只為著我的一句話，便千里迢迢地趕了來。

她坐的是最便宜、沒有空調的客車，車上又熱又擠，

但那些水靈靈的葡萄和梨子都完好無損。

我想像不出，她一路上是如何過來的，

我只知道，在這世上，凡有母親的地方就有奇蹟。

母親只住了三天，她說我太辛苦，

起早貪黑地上班，還要照顧孩子，她乾著急卻幫不上忙。

城裏的廚房設施，她一樣也不敢碰，生怕弄壞了。

她自己悄悄去訂了票，又悄悄地一個人走。

才回去一星期，母親又說想我了，不住地催我回家。

我苦笑：「媽，你再耐心一些吧！」

第二天，我接到姨媽的電話：「你媽媽病了，你快回來吧。」

我急得眼前發黑，淚眼婆娑地奔到車站，趕上了最後一趟車。

一路上，我心裏不住地祈禱。

我希望這是母親騙我的，我希望她好好的。

我願意聽她的嘮叨，願意吃光她給我做的所有飯菜，願意經常抽空來看她。

此時，我才知道，人活到八十歲也是需要母親的。

車子終於到了村口，母親小跑著過來，滿臉的笑。

我抱住她，又想哭又想笑，嗔怪道：

「你說什麼不好，說自己有病，虧你想得出！」

受了責備的母親，仍然無限地歡喜，她只是想看到我。

母親樂呵呵地忙進忙出，擺了一桌子好吃的東西，等著我的誇獎。

我毫不留情地批評：「紅豆粥煮糊了；水煎包子的皮太厚；滷肉味道太鹹。」

母親的笑容頓時變得尷尬，她無奈地搔著頭。

我心裏暗笑，我知道，一旦我說什麼東西好吃，

母親非得逼我吃一大堆，走的時候還要帶上，

就這樣，我被她餵得肥肥白白，怎麼都瘦不下去。

而且，不貶低她，我怎麼有機會佔領灶台呢？

我給母親做飯，跟她聊天，母親長時間地凝視著我，眼裏滿是疼愛。

無論我說什麼，她都虔誠地半張著嘴，側著耳朵凝神地聽，

就連午睡，她也坐在床邊，笑咪咪地看著我。

我說：「既然這麼疼我，為什麼不跟著我住呢？」

她說住不慣城裏的高樓。

沒呆幾天，我就急著要回去，母親苦苦央求我再住一天。

她說，今早已託人到城裏買菜了，一會兒準能回來，

她一定要好好給我做頓飯。

縣城離這兒九十多里路，母親要把所有她認為好吃的東西都弄回來，

讓我吃下去，她才能心安。

從姨媽家回來的時候，母親精心準備的菜餚，終於端上了桌，

我不禁驚詫～魚鱗沒有刮盡、雞塊上是細密的雞毛、香油金針菇裏居然有頭髮絲。

無論是葷的還是素的，都讓人無法下箸。

母親年輕時那麼愛乾淨，如今老了竟邋遢得這樣。

母親見我挑來挑去就是不吃，她心疼地妥協了，送我去坐夜班車。

天很黑，母親挽著我的胳膊。她說，你走不慣鄉下的路。

她陪我上了車，不住地囑咐東囑咐西，車子都開了，才急著下去，

衣角卻被車門夾住，險些摔倒。

我哽咽著，趴在車窗上大叫：「媽，媽，你小心些！」

她沒聽清楚，邊追著車跑邊喊：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙！」

這一回，母親仿佛滿足了，她竟沒有再催過我回家，

只是不斷地對我說些開心的事：

「家裏又添了隻很乖的小牛犢；明年開春，她要在院子裏種好多好多的花。」

聽著聽著，我心裏一片溫暖。

到年底，我又接到姨媽的電話。

她說：「你媽媽病了，快回來吧。」

我哪裡相信，我們前天才通的話，母親說自己很好，叫我不要掛念。

姨媽只是不住地催我，半信半疑的我還是回去了，

並且買了一大袋母親愛吃的油糕。

車到村頭的時候，我伸長脖子張望著，母親沒來接我，

我心裏忽地就有了種不祥的預感。

姨媽告訴我，給我打電話的時候，母親就已經不在了，她走得很安詳。

半年前，母親就被診斷出了癌症，

只是她沒有告訴任何人，仍和平常一樣樂呵呵地忙裏忙外，

並且把自己的後事都安排妥當了。

姨媽還告訴我，母親老早就患了眼疾，看東西很費勁。

我緊緊地把那袋油糕抱在胸前，一顆心仿佛被人挖走。

原來，母親知道自己剩下的日子不多了，才不住地打電話叫我回家，

她想再多看我幾眼，再和我多說幾句話。

原來，我挑剔著不肯下箸的飯菜，是她在視力模糊的情況下做的，

我是多麼的粗心！

我走的那個晚上，她一個人是如何摸索到家，

她跌倒了沒有，我永遠都無從知道了。

母親，在生命最後的時光裏，還快樂地告訴我，

牽牛花爬滿了舊煙囪，扁豆花開得像我小時候穿的紫衣裳。

你留下所有的愛，所有的溫暖，然後安靜地離開。

我知道，你是這世上唯一不會生我氣的人，唯一肯永遠等著我的人，

也就是仗著這份寵愛，我才敢讓你等了那麼久。

…可是，母親，我真的有那麼忙嗎

this is a very very touching story that I love a lot.

we will not appreciate what they had done for us if we did not realise how good are they.

they always love us more than we do. how much can you love them? they always put u in the 1st place in their heart.

start from the 1st day you were in her belly, she started to take care of you. she keep herself healthy and control herself not taking any unhealthy food just to keep you healthy and safe to be born.

when you started to learn how to speak, walk and run,

she is the one hold your hand.

she is the one teach you well.

when you are about time to enter school, she is the one hold your hand and bring you there.

when you are in time to enter your job field, is time when

she is old......waiting quietly beside for you to take care of her.

but....how many people really realise this?

why there is old folks' home? why so many old women and old men in there? they have their family and their own son and daughter. why?

appreciate what your mom and dad did and do for you and always remember to pay back because you can never pay back all.