homework day again....

hmm.....
working whole day for my Calculus homework again...
the homework this time did not really take me long time as it i quite easy...
basic of vectors...still not bad.
but then I really worry about the part after this....it always come to harder at the end.
scare man~~

well...thanks a lot...=)

worked on the homeworks whole day...not only Calculus but then Economics and the Speech Communication too...
finally finished all at night.
and now...studying in Linear Algebra is the most important thing.
later is Statistics.....all probabilities....

haiz....worry about all those thing...
can I really cope it into my mind? wondering~~



thanks ya...happy..~~

feel lost....=S

slept in the whole morning...
damn tired...
woke up at 9am and clean up my dorms (weekly work)
after that, went out to the cafe to buy bread...for tomorrow breakfast....haha....
the stupid guy....press on my bread because he cannot get found the price tag of the Gardenia's bread..
damn la..how am I gonna eat the bread?
when I saw the way he pressed on it...really feel like want to vomit!!!
straight away go get a new one and get my change....

back to dorms...i should study...but my eye just want to close when I saw the Linear Algebra's matrices...
went to sleep back...
haha..
until my friend called me up for lunch....
had lunch with Kean Wei, Christine and Z





feel lost today...
because You are leaving I think...
next week more terrible...
keep in touch k?
miss ya...=)
all the best for your life and study....
I want to work in a hospital and get the free treatment...haha...=)



hmm....
worry about my Mid Term seriously...because my life is full of activities...
no time to really get into study..
this is the last weekend that I really can study in dorms...
haiz...
add oil and all the best..=)



I really feel hard to make decision...
just feel want but then I feel scare...
hope that you can make me feel more confidence....
thanks for waiting...=)



feel like want to change my blog skin since few days ago...
but then just can't get a new one which I really like it...lol
well...thanks a lot to someone help me download so many nice wallpapers..
this is one of them....
although this is not the one nicest for me...but then it is cute and I like the color
it make others can read my post in a very clear way....
so i decided to create a new blog skin by myself using it...haha...
nice???all comments are welcomed....lol
just leave your comment if any in the chat box...lol
I am trying to improve it...haha...
thanks 1st...haha...=)

Times Square...

in Johnny's Steamboat...=)
Taking picture before get started....lol
Johnny's Steamboat...=)
a lot of food....lol
my favorite mushroom......nice...lol
finally cooked...so hungry...lol
start to eat...lol
entered a salon...but not i went for hair cut...sat there until almost fall asleep..lol
in KL Sentral KTM station...many peoples there...=S
Times Square Theme Park
Hao len!!!!haha...
nice fruit juices combination here...u guys can zoom in and learn....the combination no6 damn nice...haha...
at a fruits stall in KL Sentral...waiting for my juice..haha...

went out to Times Square yesterday to buy stuff....
haha..
had a nice day....good farewell to you friend..
this is the last time for us to hang out together already...really last until u come back half year later...
=)
take care and all the best....

went to have our dinner in the Johnny's Steamboat at there...
seriously...we gt a bit regret to enter the restaurant but not get into the neighboring restaurant....
haiz...
but then is ok la...the food is not bad...lol
consider satisfy....=)

hmm...went to play ting ting again...but not much games nice to play actually...
but we saw 2 guys played the shooting game that we played before them...walau...keng man!
they can passed through many stages with perfect score!!!
damn!
haha...I think they suppose play always.....=)
look so professional...haha...

no water supply....damn!!!!

forget to mention this in my last post yesterday.....
the main thing happened yesterday that driving me crazy...haiz...
my college out of water supply....=S
damn it!
I can't bath and clean my clothes....damn it!
no electricity supply few days ago...
now no water supply....hate~!!!!!

dinner....full lunch...haha...

went out for a dinner in my favourite sate restaurant there....
Restaurant Malaysia...the name...lol
hmm...had a nice dinner just now...I really love the sate in this restaurant...better then the biggest restaurant in Kajang...
haha...
well...
today's lunch is too full actually
thanks to someone that make me feel damn full
order so many foods...
well...want to thanks someone else also to send me back...lol
thanks a lot...=)

hmm...finally finished my TITAS presentation today...
1 down and 3 more is coming...
one is in the study week and the other 2 is before study week...
haha...so scare~~

hmm...
2 day left....tomorrow is the last day...
all the best buddy...=)
I will do the best in UKM here to be the best where I can...
thanks for the motivation...


seriously I like this song....

Right Here Waiting For You - Richard Marx
oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain
if i see you next to never
how can we say forever
wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted, all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter, i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now
oh, can't you see it baby
you've got me goin, crazy
wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you
i wonder how we can survive
this romance

but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

oh, can't you see it baby
you've got me goin, crazy
wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

waiting for you

superb duperb tired Tuesday...

my dinner.....=) thanks...haha...

VERY VERY VERY TIRED...............
went out for class at 7am and then come back at 9am...
went to the second class at 2pm...walau....got pop quiz....haiz...
the class continuously from 2pm to 7pm and then come back....
wait for my dinner and then went out again to the foyer there for the BSMM training.
until 10pm. wait for a meeting for biro informasi...until 11pm.
discuss the BSMM pusat thing in the foyer there with friends. until 11.30pm like that.
finally...I can come back to my room again...study a little bit and then sleep...
at 1am...haha...

got a presentation tomorrow evening...
damn sien...

exam....exam....coming soon...=S

sleepy day...rainy day....haiz...
woke up early today morning and went to class until 12pm.
damn sleepy in the class....
got my midterm result today....for Calculus I.
haiz..don't ask...feel damn disappointed to myself.....


Economics....macro especially...damn hard to understand the stupid concepts.
haiz....
sien nia...but the Midterm is coming...have to study...haiz...

looking at my final exam schedule....
wtf! all major come in the same week from 20th to 24th....nonstop with major papers each per day....
28th is the last paper : TITAS. damn!
but my papers finished earlier compared to others.
I think I can go bck to Penang straight after my final...
but then the main thing is have to wait until I finished settle down my things in UKM here...
miss Penang so much...hope can go home soon.....
haiz....



childish....
we already 21st this year....but why do we all still acting so childish?
all the stupid 'promise' just like hell as that is not necessary...
can we make some promise that is more useful or meaningful??
by the way, I not going to care so much.
I can't care also as I have no such time and no such right
just let go and do what ever the fellow want to do. I don't care...
want to stop from such stupid topic already...
making myself angry with nobody know is not worth as I will become old easily when get angry...
haha....
by the way....happy with my life now although it is a busy life...
enjoy...guys...

no electricity supply.....haiz.....

singing Varsiti Kita (UKM theme song)


today is a very very very terrible day...haiz....
woke up 6.30am in the morning because feel damn hot..
although it is very hot here in my dorms since few days ago that bring me take at least 3 baths per day...
but then...should not be this hot....woke up and saw the fan in my room stop from functioning....
=.="
so bad...no electricity supply....
haiz....
went out for the BSMM Induk AGM in FSSK...
came back late at 2pm...still no electricity supply...
after take a bath, sat down and finished up my Calculus homework

want to start my study in Economics.....
suddenly the surrounding become damn dark.....haha...
because it gonna rain....
cannot study anymore....so i slept...
from 3pm sth till 6.30pm...
haha....what a long slept....lol

something so mystic happened.
i went out to bath before the situation become darker and darker...
about 7pm like that....
I still doubt that...will there the electricity supply come back as I started to bath???
when start to bath....the situation become damn bright back...
the electricity supply is back!!!haha...
i am sooo000oooo great!!!!
thought that I know magic.... should think like this earlier....maybe the electricity supply will come back earlier...haha (I just dreaming.....haha...)




thanks for willing to wait...=)



13 more days to go.....=S

......................

go jogging in the morning.....alone...
quite enjoy actually....
but my stamina is damn bad....last week went out to jogging in the evening and jog to KKM..
this time I change the destination to F. KEJUT (engineering sch)
hmmm.....refreshing after jogging...haha...

came back to my dorms and started my gotong-royong for today...
haha....
wipe the fan( because the weather is so hot now.....cannot tahan already!!!)
clean up the floor and almost all my cupboard and my table....
washed my bed sheet and clothes....

finally...sit down and watch drama and had my lunch....
started my Calculus homework in the afternoon after my lunch...
so many 3D graphs driving me crazy...
haiz....testing my imagination....damn hard!!!
so sad to saw wrongly some questions and then did the questions that are no needed...
haiz....never mind la...take as exercise la....lol
but wasted my time....


started?! when??
don't know...lol...
I really don't know....give me some times....I just want to take over that stupid feeling that I should not keep until now...
since....don't know when....=X


在等待。。。。。

netball....miss....

watch a drama with the story talking about those football players' story.
suddenly think back the feeling when I played netball last time..
feel nervous before the match..
that is a very good feeling...very siok...
i almost forgot about the feeling in the match
busy life in university make me cannot play netball anymore.
my life is just full of assignments and projects...exam...
no more ball...but I really like it....
when can I get to play netball again?
don't know...I really don't know...
no chance to play here because of did not have member to play together here.
I miss netball....=)

left...thanks anyway

went out to my group discussion in PTSL (library UKM) about 10am like that.
about 1pm like that...we finished our discussion and get our result...
a script for a small sketch that will take 40% of my speech communication marks.
thanks a lot to all my group members and my own self....
maybe because of I get a good sleep yesterday night and my brain was so clear in the morning.
haha....I can write out the script at last.
hope that the lecturer pass the script and stories.
and at last...I can relax a little bit o prepare for my personal presentation.
till now my lecturer haven't passed my personal presentation speech text.
hope that she pass it also...lol
pray pray.....

just came back from the Kajang there.
went out to buy my goods after the discussion and had my lunch in Pizza Hut again...
haha...
and da bao back as dinner also because I can't finish all the pizza....lol
RM10 for 2 meals....
most expensive for me in this week.
lol
bought my food and goods in the Metro Point there.
the goods in the store there quite cheap one.
haha...



my leaving is been forced at start.
but i think that is the right choice for me to leave and you are not the right choice for me.
I will just take it as a lesson and won't be that stupid anymore.
if you....still come to view my blog until today.
I just want to tell you : " I am always me and I live better when there is no you in my life! btw, thanks for teaching me a such good lesson,I will remember the lesson but not you."
no matter you still come to view this blog or not, I don't care and wish you happy always.

full schedule

my schedule in March....T.T
wanna die ad.....especially my weekend....all full with duties, meetings or activities....T_T

planned to go back to Penang during weekend of March... but then I really cannot make it!
April....April fool got la....final is just in April....how to go back?!
I miss Penang...I miss my family...I miss you guys in Penang!

so hope can eat your 21st birthday cake...but then I cannot....haiz....
sorry ya yu....
but then never mind la....人没到，最重要礼物到
haha....

got the BSMM training every Tuesday night from 8.30pm to 10pm
another meeting after that...Biro.

just now went to the Mandarin club agm for KIY...
we were choosing the new committee members and discussing about the Cameron Trip
finally we decided to go Cameron at 28th of March and 29th of March

finally finished my assignments for the stupid Titas today.
type so out the whole project take me whole day.
the presentation is next Wednesday...lol
hope that it can passed faster then I can release a little bit.
the statistics assginment is coming too...have to do survey...haiz...
=S

my life is full of programs....and I going to die due to too tired...
tomorrow is going to have a group discussion on the speech communication stuff...
a sketch...the lecturer got so many excuse to say no to our idea...
brain storming is no more useful for me because...my brain is saturated until cannot storm anymore...please...don't say no anymore...I am die-ing.....


thanks for so concern....and your caring...
I got a big shocked actually...
by the way...thanks a lot...=)
I appreciated...


thanks for your idea...you really help a lots...thanks for you help!!!

妻子的空位

是一篇很值得分享的故事

我 的妻子因為意外事故離開我身邊已經四年了，我想，妻子留下不會做任何家事的我和孩子，她的心有何等難過呢？我也因為無法兼顧父母雙親的角色而感到挫折。有 一天我為了出差，清晨趕出門，無法將孩子打點好就得離開家，正巧前一天有剩下的飯，我熱了蒸蛋，向還沒有睡醒的孩子交代一聲，就出門去了。

為 了照顧好孩子飲食三餐的事，我也無力把自己的工作做好。有一天晚上回到家，我只是很簡短地和孩子打個招呼，就因為身體疲累，不想吃晚餐，脫掉西裝之後就直 接往床上躺下。就在那個時候，砰的一聲，紅色的湯汁跟泡麵瞬時弄髒了床單和被單，原來有碗泡麵在棉被裡！這小子真是的，說時遲那時快，我即時拿起一個衣 架，跑出去，往正玩著玩具的兒子的屁股就打，因為我實在是太生氣了，所以不停地打他。但就在這個時候，他邊啜泣邊說了一段話，使我停了下來。
兒 子告訴我說：「飯鍋裡的飯早上已經吃完了，晚餐在幼稚園吃了，但是到了晚上，爸爸還不回來，我就在櫥櫃的抽屜裡找到了泡麵。可是我想到爸爸說不能亂動瓦斯 爐，所以我就打開洗澡的水龍頭，用熱水泡了泡麵，一個自己吃，另一個想留給爸爸吃。因為怕泡麵涼掉，所以我就把它放在棉被裡，等你回來。可是因為我正在玩 向朋友借來的玩具，所以忘了跟爸爸講。」

我 不想讓兒子看到我在流淚，所以衝到洗手間，將水龍頭打開，大聲地哭。過了一陣子之後，我打起精神來，一面哄著兒子，一面也在他屁股上擦藥，讓他上床睡覺。 當我清理好泡麵弄髒的床單和棉被後，打開兒子的房門一看，發現他仍舊發出哭泣聲，手裡還拿著媽媽的照片。我把頭靠在房門站了許久，看著這一幕。

自從在一年前發生這件事之後，我為了扮演好媽媽的角色，更加用心地去照顧他。現在兒子快七歲了，不久後就要從幼稚園畢業，進入國小讀書。慶幸的是，兒子在這段時間毫無陰影，很開朗地成長。

就在不久前，我再一次打孩子，因為幼稚園來電話說，兒子沒有去學校，我心裡覺得很不安，所以早退回家，在整個社區裡大聲地喊他的名字，卻是遍尋不著。後來在文具店的門?f，看見他站在電玩的前面，於是我很生氣，又開始一直打他。兒子並沒有說出任何的解釋，只說了聲對不起。後來我才知道，原來剛好是幼稚園要邀請媽媽去
看才藝表演的日子。

發生這些事的幾天後，兒子回家說，他在幼稚園裡學了寫字，從此他經常關在自己的房間裡不出來，很認真地寫字。我看到兒子這個樣子，想到妻子在天國也一定會因為看到他這樣而微笑，我就無法忍住淚水。

時 間很快，又過了一年，到了冬天，街頭上都在播放著聖誕節的歌曲，我的兒子卻又闖了一個禍。我正要下班的時候，接到一通社區郵局的電話，說我兒子把一綑沒有 寫地址的信，惡作劇地放在郵筒裡。每年到了年底，正是郵局最忙碌的時候，所以這對他們造成很大的困擾。雖然我已決定不再打孩子，但在急忙趕回家後，叫了兒 子來，我又忍不住痛打他一頓。兒子這一次只是說他做錯了，卻沒有講出任何理由。我把他推到一個角落，不管了，自個兒跑到郵局領回那一綑惡作劇的信。我把信 丟到他眼前說：「你為什麼要這樣惡作劇？」兒子哭著回答說：「這些信是我要寄給媽媽的。」

當 時我的眼眶紅了起來，心裡很激動，但是因為在兒子面前，所以我盡量隱忍住沒有表現出來。我接著問他：「那麼，為什麼一次寄這麼多信呢？」兒子回答說：「以 前我要把信投進去的時候，因為個兒太矮，所以沒辦法投入，但是最近我再去郵筒時，已經搆得到了，所以我就把以前沒有寄的，一次全部都投進入了。」

我聽了以後，心中一片茫然，不知道該對孩子說什麼話。過了不久以後，我就跟他說：「媽媽現在在天上，以後你寫完信，把信燒了，就能送到天國去。」等孩子睡著之後，我到外面燒了那些信。我很好奇到底孩子想跟媽媽說些什麼，所以讀了其中的幾封信。

而當中有一封信攪動了我的心。

親愛的媽媽：
我 很想念你！媽媽，今天在幼稚園有才藝表演，但是因為我沒有媽媽，所以沒有去參加，我也沒有告訴爸爸，怕爸爸會想念媽媽。爸爸到處去找我，但我為了讓爸爸看 到我很開心的樣子，所以故意坐在電動玩具面前，雖然爸爸罵我，但是我到最後也沒有告訴他原因。媽媽，我每天都看到爸爸因為想念媽媽而哭泣，我想爸爸也跟我 一樣，很想念媽媽吧！但是，媽，我現在已經記不清楚你的臉。媽媽，請你讓我在夢中，再一次能夠看到你的臉，好嗎？聽說把想念的人的照片放在懷裡睡覺，就會 夢到那個人。可是，媽媽，為什麼你沒有出現在我的夢裡呢？」

讀完這封信以後，我就開始嚎啕大哭。到底什麼時候，我才能填補妻子的空位呢？


Read a book today....
Chicken soup for the mother's soul
read a few stories inside....
suddenly feel like so miss my mom.
mom... love you so much.
I cannot go home recent day. because I really very busy....no time to go back.
sorry...but I really miss you....=)

I want to go home!!!!

my hand....T.T







haha...actually it is not get hurt la....just a practice in the Bulan Sabit Merah training......
haha...
learned up so many stuff yesterday night when I went to the BSMM duty slot....
from 8.30pm to 10pm

after that....ran to the meeting of Biro Informasi from 10pm to 11.15pm...
discussing about the activities college in the coming March....
I will be even busier then now in March...
at start..I still planning want to go back to Penang at 5th of March...
but then......all those days...from 5th of March until 8th of March...full of college activities...
I got duty some more...haiz....
no choice...
cannot go back anymore....sad...T.T

多或少？！

当我们大家都参加这一个活动的时候。。。。
大家都有付出努力。。。所以活动能够成功
可是，庆功的时候，大家都觉得自己应该得到更多
因为，每个人都觉得，自己付出得最多
你们做得手痛，那么，我们熬了几个晚上赶出来的结果是什么？
在一个活动里，每个角色都是唇齿相依的。。。没有了谁都不能
做得多，是你自己对自己与那个活动的付出
做得少，是你对自己与活动不起
无论如何，不要再为这事耿耿于怀了好吗？
做多做少，活动成功就好。。。。
大家加油！

busy busy busy busy!!!!!!!!!!!!

busy busy busy!!!!!!

just came back from my class today morning...
damn quiz given just now...look at the question..we looked to each other....don't know how to do...
haiz....
the Vector Space stuff really hard....haiz....
don't know what is that..
it is totally different with those vector that we learned in form 6....haiz...


finished my midsem paper for Calculus II yesterday morning...feel release a bit....but then...
got a Calculus I Midsem paper today..
my mid sem paper until March...haiz...gonna die soon..

many projects and assignments are coming...
TITAS, Economics, Speech Comm...haiz...


thanks a lot to help me do the speech..haha...
you are so good....lol
hope that it can be used..then I will be free a bit...haha...
thanks anyway...=)

got so many phone calls and messages today as I reached my dorms today...
tell me this and that..
ask me do this and that...
hey!!I got exam le...more then you guys...
please let me study first!
you guys sure got laptop de....don't always want ask me do those tough stuff but you guys always hang from here to there...so free...
I am very very busy this week!
haiz...


finally my calculus I mid sem paper passed...hard?!
still ok...although I not really can answer all questions...but then overall still ok...haha..
hope that the result also ok la...now comes to statistics mid sem pulak...when is it?don't know yet...
but should be next week...
after that is the Linear Algebra and the Economics....haiz...

the Titas presentation is next Wednesday....but I haven't finished the slides yet...lol
never mind la....try to finished it in this 2 days....

headache....

woke up early this morning at 7.35am and went out for the BSMM Pusat meeting in FSSK there...
haiz....

feel damn headache as I woke up....thought that want to skip the meeting already...but then I already promised want to attend...haiz...woke up also at last...
had a bad slept yesterday night..
feel damn hot in my dorms and I keep on sweating....feel so terrible and my room mate came back late yesterday night....she suddenly on the light...
and there are also many mosquitoes in my dorms....
at last...I cant sleep already...
slept at 3am something I think at last...

feel damn blur in the meeting whole way...
but I got the post as treasurer in the BSMM Pusat there.
don't know who is the one suggest that want to cancel the post of vice treasurer and put the post as the Pelancar Kutipan Derma as the job for treasurer...walau...want to kill me a?
add my job and take away the partner from me...
luckily got people say no at last...the Pelancar Kutipan Derma not my job at last...
haha....but then...my vice treasurer is gone!!!
haiz...
got the AGM next Sunday morning also.
I really admire Malaysian's time....
said the meeting should be started at 8am but then I reached there at 8am...
no body there....the meeting start at 9.15am at last and finished at 11.15am...
if..they can make it on time...the meeting can finish at 10am something...is it better and save time?

study for Economics today...because I am going to have a test tomorrow night...
and do the homework also...
but then my head really damn pain!
finally I cannot stand on it anymore and went to sleep a while...but my a while is 4 hours at last...
from 3pm to 7pm!
my headache is better a bit...but not recovered..and I finished my paracetamol in my dorms..
haiz...
no choice..tahan a bit and continue study after my dinner la...

went out to buy my dinner in cafe...
so many monkeys out there...
met Davin in cafe and chat a while
but...when I am going back to my room..almost get attacked by a monkey that realise I am holding my dinner...
I got a big shock and ran back to cafe at last...

Lih Loon and Davin accompany me to go back to my block at last...
luckily no more monkeys....
feel scare till now...
luckily it dare not enter our foyer...or else....I just cannot imagine...

Happy Valentine's day.....the Mines Wonderland

this picture very funny le...the background like fake de ane...haha...
but...it is real one le...haha....








Alvin and Shawn

went out to The Mines Wonderland today...haha...

today is valentine's day....many couples in the shopping mall there...

after meet Alvin...we walked around...after that..met Shawn then...then we went to the Mines Wonderland....
seriously....wasted our money to enter there...RM35 for those damn bad facilities....
haiz...

Shawn and Catherine
Alvin and me

we played around with those trains and boats...
still ok la...but then not much things to see...


went to dinner after see the musical show in the Mines Wonderland there...
haha...

we also saw the white tiger and the Malaysian Tiger...
walau..those tigers are too fat...haha...
i think those tigers cannot run fast also...lol

a bear...my first valentine's present...lol

hmmm...thanks for the bear....
hope you like the bottle....
haha...no worries for the lost of the little bear...is ok....i still got the big bear...haha...

mathematics day + study day

study day.....
want to be actual correct..it is a Mathematics Exercise day.....
I am going to have 2 Mid Sem exam on Mon and Tues, a test at Mon night...
haiz....all heavy subjects that take me 4 credits hours....


so paise cannot accompany on Mon and Tues because I am always busy in these days...

hmm....the exercise given by the lecturer this time was not very hard...all basic stuff and he said that this all questions are important for us to be prepared for our coming Mid Sem exam....
tips huh???lol
he is a very strict lecturer...but...he is good in some aspect....as if...



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is valentine's day tomorrow.....
no matter how...wish everyone HAPPY VALENTINE's Day
no matter you are single or not available.....


22 days left....

The Mines

went to The Mines today....the shopping centre in the Serdang there...
we went there from the Serdang KT station there by a boat...lol
just beside the The Mines Wonderland....

had a great fun today with my friend...


we went to the Subway to have our lunch and....




the Pizza San Fransisco for our dinner...lol

this is a farewell from me to my friend....
he is going to India for medical study....
MBBS....Bachelor of Medical and Bachelor of Surgery...haha...



went to the Mines Wonderland there to take pictures...haha....


we also went to play ting ting today...as we reached the Mines there...
had a great fun playing there...haha...
gun shooting...haha...and all games....=)





got a present today...thanks a lot...
I like it!!!