《秘密》

went to Lam Wah Ee hospital after dinner....
because my babysitter is in danger situation....
her heart beat can go till 130 something per second....
as i came back from UKM, I been told her situation is not so good and stable..but I been visited her few times in this holiday as i free....but her situation is become better and better...
just yesterday....and today evening, we got call from her son told us that her situation become worse....
we talked to the nurse, she asked us to be prepared for the worst consequence...
I really don't know what can we do for her??she seems like suffering for the situation now...
she has to breath with the 'machine' and she totally cannot move and talk by herself already....
my heart damn pain with her situation like this....
hope the god bless you for your best....no matter how is the consequence, i can take it and will feel happy for your best and comfortable....

在医院里看见有好多老人家在病房里。。。。。
很痛苦似的休息着，在那边很可怜的那种情况。。。。
看见了，又会想起爷爷的经历。。。
爷爷在去世前，也是住在医院里过
因为情况蛮严重的，所以也住了很久，那时，我们似乎是天天往医院跑得那种
我在想，如果有一天我老了，是不是也会这样？
感觉上很累人累物的那种
要让孩子们花钱医治我，而我也很痛苦的在医院里为了争一口气的活着。。。。
突然很了解，为什么老人们总是希望能证明自己的存在
他们总是会想做好多事情，为的就是能人他们自己觉得自己还有存在价值，即使只是一点点也好。。。。。。
突然想起某人的一句话，“我只要活到四十五岁，过完人生最精彩的那个部分就好了！”
这是真的吗？不懂。。。。。

今天看见了一本书，刚刚开始读。。。。。
书名叫着《秘密》。。。。。是本很特别的哲学书
书中有提到，为什么世界上那么多人会成功？
那些有钱人，为什么会那么有钱？
只因为一种叫着“信念”的东西是他们那么的成功。。。。
书中提到，只要有信念，一切都会成真。。。。
我记得有某人告诉过我这句话，而我也看见了好几次成功的例子
我还真的曼相信的。。。。。
“只要有信念，就一定会梦想成真！”