Saturday, 18 October 2008

Simulation.....hell!!!




dealing with our simulation now...
in Bilik Aspirasi of KIY....
15 people per group...
we been provided with foods and drinks...to make us can survive if we want to stay in the lecture hall there for the discussion and preparation...
the presentation is tomorrow...we only been given 24 hours to make preparation....
everyone is so busy with the stuffs....
haiz....
just imagine...have to organize an activity in one day....
damn hate this stuff......but it is taking 40% of our Persatuan Pelajar marks while the final just take 30% only...
imagine that this simulation is more important then the final paper....damn!!

choose to do it in KIY here is because 12 of 15 members on my group is from KIY...LOL
4 Indians and 8 Chinese...LOL
the other 2 malays and 1 Chinese is from other kolej....hehehe.....

woke up late at 7.10am in the morning today....
why do I say is late????
because I have to reach the class which take me 10 minutes to reach by walking at 7.30am....
imagine that I have to wash my face and bath....like shit!!!
just because I slept late yesterday night at 1am....due to my C++.....haiz....

LET'S ROCK BUDDEIS ON BMW

a little bit wonder how are we going ride on this thing???lol
it is nice and pretty design....but.....lol
this one.....round a little bit and can say quite cute...haha....
by the way, it looks like toy more then a real bike...lol
this one will be more elegance.....
lol...green color...the color i like the most and pretty nice....
this one is the one i like the most among all those pictures I am showing here..lol
this one is tricky and funny....lol
how to ride?how are we going to balance ourselves when we were on the bike??wondering....=.=
this one will be the most normal design among all.....
simple and nice....the color is so artistic and nice combination...lol
this one a little bit hightech design...haha...
quite nice....lol
this one like one thing......蒙面超人....hahaha.....


received an e-mail with all this pictures and they seems nice and pretty...
just to show everyone here about the BMW new design.....
is coming soon stuffs i think....(don't ask me....I simply say....LOL) =)

Friday, 17 October 2008

I am going to be crazyyyyyyy.....................


oh my god!!!!i just gonna become crazy soon!!!!!!
studied C++ since just now afternoon as I reach my room about 2pm
I just cannot even finish the question of Functions!damn it!just one question!
met Vincent and Lih Loon in cafe to ask about the questions...but two of them just cannot recognize the problem which make me cannot run my program.....and I am going to become crazy!!!
came back to my room after that and start to do my homework again ....
going to have a simulation for Persatuan Pelajar tomorrow!
this simulation going to take me two days!means that, my weekend is gone!

going to have my EST presentation on Monday and I should start to prepare it tomorrow but I just not seems like have time for it tomorrow!damn it!
got a C++ test on function stuff on Tuesday and Economics test on Wednesday!
just imagine!I have totally no time for other things until the coming Thursday....
and I have to continue my study for final exam on Thursday!
just give me some time to rest can????
i just want to rest for a while!b ut I just have no time for it!damn la!
I am going to be CRAZY!!!!!!

C++

it is a terrible day for today....
damn hate my mentor.....she asked me to write down the day that I can go meet her for the last sign of my mentor card....
i wrote today date yesterday...she wrote at the note there that I can go find her in a meeting room just beside her office....
I call for her and she ask me wait for a while....damn that the 'a while' is one hour...
because she forgets about me already!
damn it!
how can she be like this?wasted my time at there as I have so many thing to do after that!

went to PTSL after the met the mentor.
to get past year paper from the PC there.
met Shawn and friends there....everyone is there for the past year...lol
went to bakery to buy my lunch....so full now...haha...


study C++ today...haiz....
my test is in the coming Tuesday...no choice but to study start from today as I have so many things to study....
how to finish it wo?
I really don't know...just hope that I can pass all the paper and do not need to drop my credit hours for cannot get higher pointer then 3.00....god bless...


my life now in UKM here is full of numbers as i knew since I put Statistics as my first choice....
getting quite enjoy my life here already...lol
I started to get cope in my calculus although the theory part stuff is driving me crazy....haha....
hope to get good results in my final.....god bless everyone who is going to take their final soon.....all the best...=)

Thursday, 16 October 2008

busy again......



busy study life again...haiz....
damn hate the life like this as i am so hate to study for exam...but what to do?
Malaysia's study style is like this...no matter is in Universities or secondary schools....primary schools are even worse....haiz....
so many things to study and all the books are so thick....
every lecture just treat us like his or her subject is the oly subject to study by us....
ponteng a class in this morning and only go for one calculus class at 10am

went to pusanika with hwee and kean wei and at last end up with spend money and time there...haiz...
beauty consultant...hope that it can work...
the consequence is ' I am so poor now!!'

went to PTSL after go to pusanika....
study at there for a while and come back to dorms when the rain was stopped
the weather for recent day was so bad and weird
although the day is so good at start but it will suddenly rain at the same time....damn it!
one thing that i get used to it is bring along an umbrella with me no matter is it rainy or sunny day

had my dinner in KIY cafe just now...
went to there alone and thought I will do 'da bao' again....but so surprise that i met Ah Seng, Ah Long and Sanja in cafe there....3 good seniors in KIY...lol
sit together with them and chat around...
got the news that our Hubungan Etnik is going to have new questions as it was always copied from past year papers last time...oh my god!
my food took so long time to be cooked as all those seniors finished theirs although they ordered it after me...damn!
met Vincent and Lih Loon after that
that Lih Loon was so keng...
imagine that he ate 4X what i ate...oh my god!
he ordered 2 plates of fried rice and both is 'tambah nasi'...=.=
add one ice-cream....
when we were eating....those friends just came down for dinner came out one by one....
our table become overloaded....walau....
at start, no one is there but just all Malays there....
but at last.....my table was full with those guys who just finish theirs games upstairs and come seeking for dinner...lol

all the best

lol...although i am not that 'strong'...but just hope that i can touch my dream....haha...
all the best to me and all....

2am again now...what the hell that I still not yet sleep although i will have a morning class at 9am
damn hate the class as it is so pointless and waste my time with it
by the way, not really plan to go the class unless I can wake up in time

not really hope to stay up so late until 2am actually
then why???
why am i so stupid to stay till this late (early)??
just because I cannot finish my calculus homework which I really not plan to copy vincent's answers again
i want at least one homework (cos this is the last homework in this sem) is done by myself....
lol
what bad dream as i were not so hardworking before this....
have to be hardworking for the coming final exam and not to let myself slack again after that as i should study for my exam P
haiz......just hope that i can cope all my studies...
i really not hope to retake or been forced to dropped my credit hours in the next sem
just wish me luck.....

Wednesday, 15 October 2008


gonna crazy soon......
registered my courses today morning....
oh my god!!!i have 22 credit hours for the next sem but it wasn't include the co-k yet,.....
add on the co-k,i gonna have 25 credit hours in total!damn!
thinking want to take another language course in the next sem but I don't think that i can make ot as the maximum credit hours that i can take just 27 credit hours only!damn it!

going to have my econ test later...and i am studying it now...
just get started....haha....damn it!
what is happening to me as I have to get my pointer at least 3.00 to proceed my study in the next sem.or else, i just can take 16 credit hours in the next sem and have to proceed my study for one more year!oh, damn stress!

Tuesday, 14 October 2008

sien


in the PPSM pc lab now....
suppose to have a class now but seems like no tutor is coming....
wait at here and do our registeration online here since the line in KIY is damn bad
finally settle our stuffs
left 1 hour class + tutor later
haiz....
having a very sien and stressful life in UKM here as we always have so many tests.
just finished a presentation yesterday....but I am going to have another one more presentation today.
going to have a test tomorrow.
there will be presentations on the coming Monday and next Saturday.
Next Sunday is gonna kill me with the Simulation stuff....
oh my god.....I just cannot tahan with the life like this!!!!

so wonder why other people's university life are so enjoyable but not mine one?
everyday with tests and projects.
presentation....damn it!
some quiz more....what's the hell!!!????

although it was raining yesterday night...
I still went to the Economics class....lol
don't think that I were so hardworking that won't skip class.
went there is because my friend is there.....he is a genius...my C++ presentation which will bring me to hell today need his help...lol
so thankful to you Vincent and Lih Loon.....you two really help me much....
finally i understand what are the lecturer talking about in the calculus class for the past few weeks....lol
my form to study in calculus came back finally...lol
haha...damn happy with it...
my calculus in university here is not only solving problems but application more...
what we learned in form 6 were not enough unless we know how to apply it in our life and to explain problems so with theories..lol


we have to do our early registration for the 2nd sem courses...
damn it that I am gonna to have > 22 credit hours in the next sem....
oh my god...that 22 hours is the one written in the guide book but after register, it will be more.
damn!
why do i say so?
just because the credit hours written in the book for this sem is 19 hours only but after register, I got 22 credit hours to catch up.
what's the hell is doing that it gonna kill me with that.....the 22 hours wasn't included the Lab and the tutorial.
damn !

have to go back to my study now...
yesterday night was too tired as my class continuously....
after discussing the presentation with kean wei i slept until today morning....
haiz...

Monday, 13 October 2008

no title

so sien in UKM here and i do nothing in my study for whole day yesterday....
went to library after my lunch(actually is breakfast) yesterday,but have to come back quite early at 5pm because library was closed at 5pm during weekend.
it was rainy day yesterday...luckily i brought my umbrella...lol
went to kolej Aminuddin Baki for a early dinner and come back to my dorms.....
continue my study n C++....it is gonna kill me as my presentation is tomorrow!!!damn.....


ok....due to i feeling that myself is damn fat here.....so i am on diet recently....
trying to cut down my meals....not to eat much.....
i cannot stop from have my normal meal as i have gastric....if i stop it, the next day i cannot even wake up for my clas....

check out this photo...lol
found it when i have nothing to do during online...hahaha....
damn cute McD.....do you ever tried to have a meal in McD before and get something like this????
lol
i never...haha....i think it will be suitable for those who wanna on diet and thinking want to have a meal in McD also...lol
won't be that fat as the size is damn small...lol

Sunday, 12 October 2008

Irritated!!


midnight oil again....haiz.....
no choice as i cannot finish my study and I don't want to feel stress when the final is near.
damn it as I not really can study for these 2 days.....haiz....
I know what is happening but I just cannot handle it!!!!
study over night....at least I can study more....haiz....
although not much can be studied.....i can get something into my brain.
the feeling is damn irritated....make me cannot cope my study and damn it I cannot concentrate!
damn !!!!!!come back!no more dreaming!!!!is not time for that and sleeping!

went to library after woke up in the morning.....1pm
slept early in the morning at 7am and woke up at 11am
lol
didn't sleep much as well because it is too bright in my room as the sun shined into my room
haiz....

心,去了哪里?
不再属于我的了吗?

Saturday, 11 October 2008

burning midnight oil....

lol....3.10am now...haha...
and what am i doing now???? burning midnight oil...
just because I cannot cope and touch my target during yesterday day time even I stay awake in dorms for whole day....
damn shit!!!!
day dream whole day....don't know what were I dream about also...serious...
haiz....then the consequence is....cannot sleep until i finish at least half of my target....
pity man!!!!
peaceful....lol
the candle is peaceful right???just during day time i think...if you gonna light it up during night time like this....just like what am i doing now...."burning midnight oil..."
lol...
haha.....
someone does not sleep as well as me.....my room mate and friend...
chatting on msn and studying at the same time...
feel so boring and come here to post up something....haha.....
got to go now...maybe if i free during day time later or i found something to post up....i will be here again...lol...
bye for now...haha....

woke up quite early in the morning about 10am.
say quite early is because i slept very late at 3.30am
haiz.....get used to the busy life in UKM here....sleep late at night and wake up early in the morning...haiz.....=)

the corridor outside of my room....=.=...dark...

out of electricity......
so suddenly that my laptop become totally dark.....
damn! the electricity is down.....oh my god!
damn hot in my room for almost one hour...haiz......


一直选择逃避,为的就是不要让自己在陷下去
可是,我还是拉不住自己的心
我的心,很不听话。。。。。

Friday, 10 October 2008

612 星球


我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍着痛 也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我
擦干眼泪 一个人 漂流在这宇宙
小王子说 爱一定 开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗 在什麽时候

好喜欢这首歌哦。。。。。感觉很有意思
会有吗?幸福???
知道你在骗我,可是却是心甘情愿的被骗也不生气。。。。。
我到底还能忍到什么程度??能忍到几时?

我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹

meals....lol


look a this.....haha....
early in the morning...and this is my breakfast...(when i have time for it)
why do i say so???just because if i able wake up early in the morning and don't need to rush to class, i will have time for this delicious breakfast....
if not, I will just drink plain water and rush to class....lol


check this out....lol
study....is the title of this picture when i found it...lol....
and i gonna study later..haha...
the final is near around the corner...damn shit that I did not prepare anything about it...=.=....

ok...gonna say something...recall about this at the moment i receive a message from someone that i not really like his style....
always don't want go to class and will message me to help him sign the attendance...damn shit!
if you are lazy and don't want to go, then just don't need go and don't keep on message someone to help you sign for the attendance every time you want to skip the class....
what the hell who are you that I have to help you up like this????damn!

true love...perhaps....
this picture is so cute and i got it from my friendster...thanks for my friend to post it up for me...
and thanks a lot for your wishes....
hope that i can find mine one as soon as possible....
but when will it be???lol..
we just wait and see...haha.....

someone told me that cannot understand gals' thinking...lol
no doubt...is a guy..haha...
walau...girls thinking sometimes is even simpler then you guys k?
girls...fight for our thinking la...lol...
just simple, must not forgot dates, and accompany the girl during the important date(if you able,if really cannot,i think a phone call and messages is enough right??)...is gals thinking and they won't angry anymore...lol
but the mistakes that those guys always make is forget about the dates...lol
haha.....=)

Big Apple...lol
brought back by my friend from Mid Valley...haha....
is my second dinner for today...lol....
oh no!my diet plan fail for today...=.=
haiz....when saw something nice, I just cannot tahan and will continue eat...=.=
no good....not discipline enough....haiz...

by the way...the donuts very delicious...
thanks a lots....lol =)

Thursday, 9 October 2008

copying....color and meaning of roses...

lol......copying.....
haha....read someone's blog just now....
realized and recalled back what had we discussed in the cafe during dinner...lol..
the colors and meaning of roses..lol

well, gonna say something here...

gals....when you receive roses...look nicely what color is that...=.=
don't get misunderstand about the color and the purpose of the sender...lol

guys....when you thinking want to give roses as present to someone.....
please check out clearly the meaning and color of the roses before you give out the roses...
you will get scold...if you sent wrongly...haha...
here is some guide for all....hope you all will like it...

hmm.....gonna say hi to someone here...
i know you don't like your name to be in here....
so, you know yourself who am i talking about la....lol
pai se that i am copying your blog post...cos it is damn interesting to share with friends about this here...lol...
i know you won't mind i become copy cat of your blog right???lol...



Red Roses
Red roses proclaim "I love you." They are the ultimate symbol of romantic love and enduring passion. Florists can't keep up with Valentines Day demand for red roses, which makes them especially expensive in February.

Yellow Roses
Yellow roses indicate friendship and freedom -- so don't send them if your intentions are romantic and long-lasting. Yellow roses are also appropriate for sending congratulations to newlyweds, graduates, Texans, and new mothers.

Pale Pink Roses
Pale pink roses connote grace, gentleness, and gratitude.

Light Pink Roses
A joy to behold, light pink roses express fun and happiness.

Deep Pink Roses
Deep pink roses say "Thank you."

Lilac Roses
Lilac roses indicate the sender has fallen in love at first sight with the recipient and is enchanted.

White Roses
Pure white roses symbolize truth and innocence. They also send other messages: "I miss you" and "You're heavenly."

Coral Roses
Coral roses express one thing with their passionate color: Desire.

Peach Roses
Peach roses speak of appreciation, gratitude, and also sympathy.

Orange Roses
Orange roses communicate enthusiasm and desire on the part of the sender.

Dead Roses
Regardless of the original color, dead roses say "It's over" loud and clear.

COMBINED ROSES
Put two or more colors of roses together, and a new rose meaning arises:

White Roses + Yellow Roses
A symbol of harmony.

Red Roses + Yellow Roses
A message of happiness and celebration.

Red Roses + White Roses
An indication of bonding and harmony.

MORE ROSE SYMBOLISM
While roses are traditionally presented in bouquet form, these are also acceptable:

Single Red Rose
"I love you" (but I'm not going to go broke telling you).

Single Rose Any Color
"I thank you" (and I'm still not going to go broke saying so).

Two Roses Entwined
An engagement or marriage is imminent.



Red Roses
red
Red roses are the traditional symbol for love and romance, and a time-honored way to say "I love you." The red rose has long symbolized beauty and perfection. A bouquet of red roses is the perfect way to express your deep feelings for someone special.

Pink Roses
pink
As a symbol of grace and elegance, the pink rose is often given as an expression of admiration. Pink roses can also convey appreciation as well as joyfulness. Pink rose bouquets often impart a gentler meaning than their red counterparts.
Yellow Roses
yellow
The bright, sunny color of yellow roses evokes a feeling of warmth and happiness. The warm feelings associated with the yellow rose are often akin to those shared with a true friend. As such, the yellow rose is an ideal symbol for joy and friendship.
White Roses
white
White roses represent innocence and purity and are traditionally associated with marriages and new beginnings. The white rose is also a symbol of honor and reverence, and white rose arrangements are often used as an expression of remembrance.
Orange Roses
orange
With their blazing energy, orange roses are the embodiment of desire and enthusiasm. Orange roses often symbolize passion and excitement and are an expression of fervent romance. A bouquet of orange roses will send a meaningful message.
Lavender Roses
lavender
The unique beauty of the lavender rose has captured many hearts and imaginations. With their fantastical appearance, lavender roses are a perfect symbol of enchantment. The lavender rose is also traditionally used to express feelings of love at first sight.

stress.....

rainy day again....
the weather is damn bad since few days ago....
everyday is sunny a while, rainy a while...
really don't know what happen.....=S
the different is I never laugh so happy when I have to walk under the rain just like the picture...lol
even i got the umbrella...
don't think too much that because of there is no dog beside me....damn that is because i don't like to get wet...lol...=)


add on a tutorial today....=.=
just because the damn shit tutorial canceled last few weeks ago....
haiz....
have to attend la...luckily it is just an hour class...won't feel that boring..=.=

getting quite stress as my study haven't been coped...
I always like this since form 6...easily get stressed...
during SPM and PMR all that.....the word "stress" will not attend in my dictionary....hehe....
but not since form 6

Wednesday, 8 October 2008

final exam and holidays....


busy day.....
just finished my tutorial class in PPSM...
gonna continue my C++ class and Economics after this....
the Economics class is going to have a small quiz later...damn that I did not study anything about it....because I just got know about the quiz yesterday....
haiz....no time....2 chapters which is so long and so many things to memorize....

planned to start my study for my final exam tonight....
is time for me to stop from watching dramas and play games...
study hard for my final and we are going to play during the holidays in December....hehe...
that is a vacation holidays as everyone planned to go Johor....hehe....
cannot wait for it...but the final decision is still in progress....we still in consideration....=)

just came back from library
went there for study and finally finish some study in organic chemistry...
haiz.....I forgot all the stuff taught by Mr and Mrs Sim last time....so bad....
have to start again from 0.....
if I able to study consistently during this 3 weeks, I should be can go back to my aunt's house during the study week.....
hope that I can cope my study well.....=)

the line in my room here is damn slow and bad enough...
i tried for hours only get to online now....
haiz...

Tuesday, 7 October 2008

you will be always in my heart.......


got a sad news yesterday that my babysitter passed away on Sunday...
i hope that i can attend to the funeral but she just seems like not allow me to do so...haiz...
so sad that i cannot attend...
she will be buried in the Batu Gantung there together with her daughter who passed away last year....

I will miss you and gonna pray for your best to have a "new life" in heaven.....
I think your family members will have same thinking as me that you won't be so suffer for the sickness as you pass away.....

you will always be in my heart.....



Siber PTSL

exam P...all probability.....=S


in siber PTSL now....the library siber...
damn that I cannot online in my room for this 2 days....
the line just damn bad until we only can look at the laptop but do nothing....
talked about the SOA stuff with my friend who just passed the Exam P in the past holiday.....
his name is vincent....
the exam P is very funny....the situation in the exam room just like the exam for our Undang-undang....
but the big difference is, there is a cc tv upwards of your head to guard you....wow!!!hehe.....
3 hours...and we just been allowed to bring a calculator and our passport into the exam room.
no drinks and other things....
at last...a big congratulation to Vincent who is the first one to pass this exam P among the first year student of 2008/2009....haha....

A feeling.Only felt.


Here are a few reasons

why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore' even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17. The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'

18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say 'I miss you'

24. The way you miss them

25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.

Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.

We love them for a million reasons,

No paper would do it justice.

It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.

A feeling.Only felt.

Monday, 6 October 2008

1st day class.........


went to class in the morning......
what were we do in the class????? no doubt....is copy......homework.....
damn shit!!!i never copy others mathematics homework last time and people were copied mine!!!!
but after came to UKM, you just see what had i done??????!!!!!!
copy calculus homework every Monday morning!!!!!damn!!!
what the hell???

had a great dinner with friends in KIY cafe....
we all brought something from our hometown and ate together.....so fun to have talk together....
everyone will come back to busy life after this as our final exam is after one month.....

many friends gave me feedback about this blog....
no pictures but all words...damn sien...haha....
trying my best to get this blog become more interesting....
hope that you all enjoy it...
this blog is about my life and the way for my friends to know about me....
enjoy and thanks for your feedback....haha....
hope to get more....bye...=)

Sunday, 5 October 2008

Reached

dare not seeeee!!!!!!!dann!!!!!

Finally I reached UKM at 5pm today....
don't misunderstand....I depart from Penang in Chung Ling High School bus at 9am in Tesco Penang there....
the bus was very slow in driving and the traffic is jam....
the weather was very bad...sigh...
the sky was damn dark and it was rained...
haiz....the main door is the only door opened in UKM today....

the driver was so "heartless" enough that left us those from KIY one down the bus station and we have to walk up the hill ourselves under rain and carried the damn heavy luggages....
oh my god that we just tried our best to reach our room as soon as possible....

tidy up my room with my room mate as we reach UKM in the same bus...
our room wasn't so dirty as we imagined....
get it cleaned in 1 and a half hours....haha...
a very bad thing now is that is a dead body in the place we used to washed our clothes there....
don't think tooooooo much.....it is a MONKEY.....
damn now as I walk to toilet also i can smelt it....
OH MY GOD!!!!damn smelly....
thanks a lot to my buddy for help me found this such pretty nice template....=)
i dare to bat you because i know you well....hehe....
we just stay and see.....you will know what am i trying to mean already....hehe...=)

last day in Penang.....

went to Prangin Mall with my mom and her friend today....
my mom said she want to buy clothes.....at last she bought a blouse in Islee.....
went to hospital for my babysitter again today...
her situation is worse...her heart beat only left 30 something per minutes....
it is damn slow as she already cannot stay alive for long....
everyone suffering for her and herself too....
god bless you for your best....

going back to UKM tomorrow morning...
the bus is 9am depart from Penang Tesco....
haiz....gonna leave....
i will miss everything here....
will be back to here after my final exam....
just hope that I can study well in my final in UKM there.....
back to UKM means that my busy life gonna get started again.....=S
assignments, presentation, and studies!!!!!!is coming.......haiz.....

Friday, 3 October 2008

movie,bowling and chit chat....

Penang Bowl.....=)

went out for movie.....
"Flight Of The Living Dead".....hmm.....what can I say???
that movie is not geli enough....and is not.....wat enough???don't know la...
just not nice enough...the consequence....
if you haven't watch yet, I will say, just don't waste your money....
i myself not worth paying for this movie....cause a horror movie that can make people laugh for so long, really is not horror enough....=.=

went to Penang Bowl after that...
my skill......=.=
just gone.....
but still feel so happy as I did not play bowling for a long time already....hehe....
went to Esther's house there for dinner....and walked around in the night market...
Starbucks again after that...chat around about many things in our universities....
accompany Yu to buy her cakes from Secret Recipe for her family....and then just go home...
I left my car at my home there and follow Esther's car to Yu's house...to drop her....
oh ya...forget to say....anyone see this blog, can go buy lottery tomorrow...cause NAN DE today, Esther Goh drive to fetch us to go out today...haha.....

tomorrow will be the last day for me to stay in Penang already....gonna go back to UKM on Sunday morning....
I am sure I will miss Penang so much....
miss everyone here, miss the food here and miss everything here.....

这次回来,以前的感觉又回来了。。。。
我们又能回到无话不谈的那种日子了。。。。。
哈哈。。。感觉很开心。。。。。。
可是我很快又要回到那边了。。。。。会怀念这次回来的一切。。。
希望,下次回来,一切一样照旧。。。。。

miss everything you gave me.....but I really don't know what is that feeling....=S

Thursday, 2 October 2008

worry...hospital....

went to hospital again....
to visit my babysitter....her situation is much more better then yesterday...
the heart beat is not that fast already...and she also can breath in more peaceful way already....
really damn scare and worry when i saw her situation like this....
we cannot do anything but just stand there and look at her nia.....
god bless....

如果你不了解,并不表示你应该拒绝它。也许你并不了解电,但你仍然可以享用电的好处。
我不知道电视怎么运作的,但我知道:你可以用电来煮一个人的晚餐,你也可以用它来“煮”一个人。

创造一直都在发生。每当一个人产生一个思想或者持续某种惯常的思想方式,就进入了创造的过程,某些事情也将因为那些思想而显现出来。

shopping + eat + holiday = fat...=.=

sleepy....although i slept for whole night from 12am yesterday....
oh my god.....my situation is worse in the holiday....
went to Queensbay Mall, shopping everyday....
haiz....damn la!I did not study anything....sad....=.=

the worst thing is I become fatter in this holiday....
6kgs up in two months....damn!!!I have to take four months to get back my old weight....
just imagine how fat am i now....=.=
must keep fit already.....

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Wednesday, 1 October 2008

《秘密》

went to Lam Wah Ee hospital after dinner....
because my babysitter is in danger situation....
her heart beat can go till 130 something per second....
as i came back from UKM, I been told her situation is not so good and stable..but I been visited her few times in this holiday as i free....but her situation is become better and better...
just yesterday....and today evening, we got call from her son told us that her situation become worse....
we talked to the nurse, she asked us to be prepared for the worst consequence...
I really don't know what can we do for her??she seems like suffering for the situation now...
she has to breath with the 'machine' and she totally cannot move and talk by herself already....
my heart damn pain with her situation like this....
hope the god bless you for your best....no matter how is the consequence, i can take it and will feel happy for your best and comfortable....

在医院里看见有好多老人家在病房里。。。。。
很痛苦似的休息着,在那边很可怜的那种情况。。。。
看见了,又会想起爷爷的经历。。。
爷爷在去世前,也是住在医院里过
因为情况蛮严重的,所以也住了很久,那时,我们似乎是天天往医院跑得那种
我在想,如果有一天我老了,是不是也会这样?
感觉上很累人累物的那种
要让孩子们花钱医治我,而我也很痛苦的在医院里为了争一口气的活着。。。。
突然很了解,为什么老人们总是希望能证明自己的存在
他们总是会想做好多事情,为的就是能人他们自己觉得自己还有存在价值,即使只是一点点也好。。。。。。
突然想起某人的一句话,“我只要活到四十五岁,过完人生最精彩的那个部分就好了!”
这是真的吗?不懂。。。。。

今天看见了一本书,刚刚开始读。。。。。
书名叫着《秘密》。。。。。是本很特别的哲学书
书中有提到,为什么世界上那么多人会成功?
那些有钱人,为什么会那么有钱?
只因为一种叫着“信念”的东西是他们那么的成功。。。。
书中提到,只要有信念,一切都会成真。。。。
我记得有某人告诉过我这句话,而我也看见了好几次成功的例子
我还真的曼相信的。。。。。
“只要有信念,就一定会梦想成真!”

Queensbay Mall with mom.....=)


saw this in queensbay Jusco just now....hehe...

went out shopping with my mom in Queensbay Mall....
she want to buy clothes....
walked around almost the whole Queensbay Mall after went out for lunch + breakfast in the Dim Sum shop in Bali Bali there....
luckily we went there quite early then we able to avoid traffic jam and able to find parking lot...
today is Hari Raya Aidilfitri.....is a holiday....hehehe....
so many sales in Queensbay Mall....
hmm......but we walked around the whole shopping mall only bought two shirts from Padini....
i really like to go shopping in Padini....hehe....don't know why le....I always cannot get good shirt outside but like to go Padini...
always can get something from there...haha...

halo buddy....so suprise that you called me just now...
but is a bad news that you get sick....remember to take good care of yourself....
=)
see you after holidays....take care....miss you...=)

our holidays is gonna finish....
still left out 3 more days...
my bus back to UKM is 9am in Sunday morning....=)
will miss Penang after i go back to there....=)

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?

這個男孩太傻,為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多!....

現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中,有那麼一個人。

「我現在喜歡的人,就是我前面的這位啦!」男孩大聲的說著,指著走在他前頭的女孩。

「神經病!」女孩嘀咕著,快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群,只當男孩拿她開玩笑。

直到某一天,女孩收到了一封信。


『我是真的喜歡妳!我可以為妳做任何事,只要妳喜欢,我都會去做。
一封信就這樣,沒有署名,短短幾句話,但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎? 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話,託人交給男孩。


「我能!妳看著。」男孩看了內容,當著她的面衝進馬路中央。

只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲,以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。

「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中,依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。

「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的!」
「胡說!明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的!」

「什麼胡說!他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎?我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的!」
「真的是這樣嗎?」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。

「嗯。」女孩點了頭,淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間,滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙,似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。
「你看吧!你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生!他再也不能打籃球了......」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊,哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。
「這......」女孩的父母無言。

「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子,直到他再也不需要她的時候,這是你們女兒欠我們的!」男孩的父親說。

「不行!她不愛你兒子啊!你不能那麼自私!」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。

「好,我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中,女孩答應了。


-------------------------兩年後------------------------


在公園的躺椅上,男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著,輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。
「為什麼喜歡我?」女孩開口了。

「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。

「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了,你會放我走嗎?」女孩說。

「我從來沒有綁住過妳,是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了,只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。

男孩說對了,兩年前在他醒來後,他就解除了約定,但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊,她愧疚,因為她的一句玩笑話,毀了男孩的夢,男孩再也不能打籃球了。

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然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局,女孩的心給了另一個人,沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。


「你為什麼當初要聽我的話!你怎麼那麼笨!」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。

「我......只是愛妳。」男孩說,伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛!」女孩甩開男孩的手。


「你的愛太強烈,害慘了我,你知不知道啊!你知不知道啊!」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我......」男孩說不出話來。


「為什麼是我!為什麼是我!你為什要愛上我!我討厭你這樣!我討厭!討厭!」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼,轉身跑了出去。

女孩的愧疚太深,她沒辦法打開心結,她因為責任而留在男孩身邊,直到她喜歡上別人了,她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子,所以她崩潰了,然而也傷了男孩的心。

女孩使勁的跑,用力的跑,淚水模糊她的視線,心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車......
「小心!」伴隨著警告,有人推開了她。

熟悉的碰撞聲響起,再一次,女孩回頭看,再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。

「我真的能為妳做任何事......」男孩說,嘔出一口血,昏了過去。

「不要!」女孩受不了再一次的刺激,她尖叫,使盡所有力氣的尖叫。

「太遲了,肋骨插進內臟,內出血止不住,沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就......難道真的沒辦法了嗎?」

醫院裡的人議論紛紛,句句傳入女孩的耳中,她的淚水決提,濕了她的襯衫。


如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了,如果男孩不要愛上她就好了,她哭,哭的歇斯底里,因為這次男孩真的要離開她了,他現在只能等待死亡。

「我想妳應該進去看他......」男孩的父親說,他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。

「好......」女孩語不成聲,她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房,見到男孩蒼白的臉,她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭......」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻......」女孩哭個不停。

「或許吧......這個給妳......」男孩張開緊握的手,一封沾了血的信。


「這是最後一封了,好好的看好嗎?」男孩說,眼角留下一滴淚。


「好......」女孩接下那封信,清澈的淚水滴在信封上,混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事......」


這是男孩的最後一句話,他再也不能待在女孩身邊,他走了,女孩昏了過去。

『給最愛的妳:

愛上妳,多半是痛苦,我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我,可是我還是好愛好愛
妳......

當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛,我不會去做。
妳知道嗎?只要妳高興,我真的能為妳做任何事。

我知道當妳看這封信時,妳已經有喜歡的人了,放自己自由好嗎?
不要在強迫自己留在我身邊,我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。

我會一直守護著妳,因為妳是我最愛的人,我真的能為妳做任何事,不管過了多少年,我都不曾改變。』


女孩收起了信,她的淚水已經不再流下,男孩離開她已經五年了,五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。

女孩的命,是男孩救的,但女孩的心,自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。

『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎?喜歡上了,愛上了,就是了。』
在蔚藍的天空裡,風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇,男孩也不能選擇,谁都不能選擇。

waste my time again.....

wasted my time again.....just studied 3 pages of my book only....
the whole day stay in home without go out....
what the hell???
what happen to me???why my discipline become that bad???
I just cannot cope my study after I come into UKM....
damn!
It shouldn't be like that!!!
I should study at home since I am in home for whole day!!!!what happened to me??!!!!!!!!!!
haiz....
now, I have no mood to study anymore...haiz.....
sad la!!!
after form 6, I really like put down and forget about all my study spirit....
since when I cannot stay up late or whole night for study??
since when I cannot just stay quiet sit down study without walk around always????
since when my mind become like shit???!!!
since when??!!!

Tuesday, 30 September 2008

rainy day again,....

today is a rainy day.....lol
very nice and suitable fro me to sleep...so lazy to walk out of my house....
yu came to my house for a short while just now.....
accompany her to go out have a short tea time + lunch opposite my house...
talked about movie and some other stuffs.....
feel so comfort slept whole night yesterday night until today morning 10am....
yesterday was damn tiring.....that is a very special experience for me.....haha....
today really can make me take a good rest and now looking at my C++ stuff + listening songs + chatting...haha...
enjoy the life now here in my house....
the time passed quite fast and my holiday is finishing......half way already....haiz....
my study just get started....damn!!what am i doing now????
 
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